How It Feel

  I thought I knew it all... I thought i had it all down to a T down to repeat.. To tell someone else how to do it.
Just when I thought I knew he came and showed me; Showed me how it's really done.
Funny because I swer I didn't want any distractions. But I honestly didn't mind his presents plus he admire my attention so soon he just became apart of the plan.
  The thing about this is that I don't hear anything but his heart... I remember the steady beat; I can hear when it slows down to let him speak.
  I don't ask him a bunch of questions often because I don't want him to think I don't believe his actions... I hear them more than anything. And in this case I'm not such a good listener, but paying attention make it an actual sight to see.
  It's not so bad to not listen if it's not what I want to hear, but more of what I want to see is more important to me... He gives me that girl in the movie affect. That's exactly how I see it in my head. I can replay it over and over again and it's always a good romance chick flick.
  I hear his name and automatically began to look for him to appear. I hear his voice and close my eyes and see his lips saying exactly what he's saying moving exactly the way they would move as if he was right in front of me saying it.
  I wish it was like that with his touch because it's so heavenly I can only remember it and not actually feel it as much as I want to. I can't get the same goosebumps; the same nerve movement that creep through me when he touch me. I swer when he touches me it's like a butterfly that landed on a honeysuckle and tried to suck it dry but it remembers that it's going to want it later, so it saves it right before it's too late. When it decides to fly away it always comes back and do the same thing. The honeysuckle don't mind because the feeling of knowing that the butterfly is coming back to it and isn't going to let it die is literally breathtaking...
  Even though I can't feel him physically, I can feel him holding on to my soul mentally. I'm stuck thats how I know this feeling can't go away. It don't stop and I don't remember when it started; it happened and then I feel in love like how you fall... Slowly but then all at once like BOOM. Only difference is I'm falling upside down... I'm floating now, I can't find solid ground, and I don't even want to...

Jealous For What?

   "Why is she liking  alllll your pictures"? "Y'all must talk"! "Like I really don't get it... She not going keep likin ya pics"? "I mean y'all talk right"!?
These are just some of jealous questions you or you're partner might ask. Now some of you might think that this isn't jealousy, and it might not be if he or she isn't insecure. See you can ask all these questions and more and not be jealous because you're not insecure, insecurity comes with being jealous. You have a personal problem with in you. It's only a sign of lack of confidence. And that is why many people get jealous when their partner gets special attention from someone else.
   Most people think that jealously is a sign of affection like "Awww that's so nice he really cares about you girl he trying to protect you""That only means she really cares if she showin she jealous" Well if you ask me he or she sounding real crazy, but that's only if you ask me! Also sound like they have trust issues. These jealous people are normally seeking to be in control which is unhealthy in a relationship. No ones the boss in a relationship; you set boundaries to stay together not try to control something that is completely out of your control.

For example: A girl leaves heart eyes under your guys picture. A jealous girl will cuss him out for what the girl did. Anyone else would be like "thanx, ain't he just to die for" and be happy that he is hers and instead of cussing him out reward his fine ass for not acknowledging them heart eyes! YOU CAN LOOK BUT DON'T TOUCH HUNNY!
   See a lot of the jealously comes from your partner half of the time. If she or he is known for screwing around on you of course you're going be jealous and insecure because now there's others to worry about. Which really isn't cool but yeah it do happen so guys when you're doing this, you can't blame a lady for being jealous when you got her out here thinking she got to compete for you! A guys duty is to make his lady feel like she the only girl in the world for him, make her feel like ain't nothing better for him, and to remind her how beautiful she is!
  Jealousy will ruin a relationship. I don't care what anyone says. How much they think it means, how much they think it shows a person cares for you. IT DON'T! It only shows that they think they can loose you to another person so they act out and push their partner away and end up loosing them any way.
  Now I'm going tell you what Mee do. I wake up, roll over, checks phone, search his page, go thru comments, go thru likes, and check his twitter. You think I'm jealous. I think I'm nebby lol. And this can be many of you I know I'm not the only one. Now what makes me different from being jealous is that I'm not insecure. I think I'm ALL THAT & MORE for my guy. I don't doubt him or accuse him of others doing. I ask simply because I want to know! I can careless about another girl!
   My advice to you jealous ladies. Learn to love yourself first because that's where it starts. If you want to know something ask instead of accuse. Work on your trust. Learn to not give a damn about the next girl. You should always feel like you're the shit and you got this!

Angels In Disguise

 Death is something we don't see coming but all know him when we see him. We see it every day weather it's in a peaceful or tragic way. He comes and take away the people we love the most, the people we care about, the people which whom we planned on growing old with, the people who we know would have never left our side unless death has arrived,  and that's exactly when it hits us.
  That's the worst part because we never knows when he's coming so we take a lot of things for granted; A lot of things we wish we could have did differently; A lot of things we wish we could take back; A lot of things we wish never happened but know if it didn't we wouldn't be where we at.
 Death will have you questioning Gods actions, shoot questioning if there even is a God sometimes because he makes you think it's the work of someone so evil, because only a evil person would want to see you go thru something like this. But that's not true. This is something WE ALL done been thru something all so very familiar with, but would hate to deal with.
 You might even began to ask god Why!? Looking in the sky hoping for a reply Why!? But sometimes he doesn't answer right away, maybe it's because he's gathering your support system up in a huddle and telling them "your love ones needs you right now help your brother/sister thru... BREAK"!
 He called so many of his angels home thru out the years, maybe he need them more than we do and just knowing that they're job they had was now done and it was even a blessing to even meet a person who is now capable of watching you, guiding you, holding you, helping you, loving you, without being here physically because their spirit is just as great as there physical appearance. They were Angels the whole time and you didn't even know it til the end; That's what messes you up like... "I knew an angel.. Why didn't they tell me"?
 Death puts you thru the worst pain you can ever go thru mentally and emotionally. He makes you beat yourself up, cry your eyes dry, and make you feel pain like you never felt before, but most of all he makes you realize that life is way to short for the petty things, for you to take for granted, for you to not know when it might be your time or someone so very close to you to go.
 God wouldn't put you thru any obstacle he know you couldn't get thru. Remain Prayed Up!

What You Mean You Not Happy?

 Hey... I'm sorry if I never speak. But it's only because I come here to get my word out to those who need it. Now all of you act as though you don't need it or may act like the person you pretend to be on Instagram, Twitter, or maybe even Facebook I don't know. But what I do know is what we all want but seem like it's so hard to find thanks to these fasages. Happiness is what we really seek even if we have everything we could imagine. What would it be if you're not happy?

 Now happiness is not something you can go looking for. You really have to feel it, you have to be able to always look at it in it's face and smile with no remorse. Happiness often sneaks through a door, you didn't even know you left open. It's the most refreshing feeling in the world. So a lot of times I don't get how someone simply cannot be happy!

 In a relationship if your not happy it won't work. If you want to be happy you will work for it. Happiness sees you. You cannot fake it. You first have to be real with yourself and let someone else enjoy you just the way you are instead of the way you're not. If you feel like you are settling I swer to you you're not happy. If you feel like you have to have the latest and the greatest your not happy. You can have a million dollars and not be happy. Don't let the finer things make you believe your happy. A person can treat you like complete shit and buy you something the next day that doesn't make the pain go away it doesn't mean anything. All it does it shows you that they can afford it.

 Someone who is truly happy appreciate it. Someone who wants to make you happy appreciate you and everything you do. Someone who can tell you you're beautiful flaws and all, wake up and think about you all the way until they go to sleep, except the fact that sometimes you snore or some creep shit you don't want no one else to ever find out lol, someone who really cares about your well being, and someone who believe in you and is always there no matter how far, someone who likes you just as much as you like them. Shit someone who likes you back. These are more than every reason to be happy. Someone will have this and I'm like HOW YOU NOT HAPPY? Because really how could you not be happy with that?

  You really cannot believe that because a person has money and a nice car that they can make you happy now if your partner do then that's a plus but if you go in trying to get something out of it your only looking for lust and not love or happiness. You're in charge of your own happiness; you have to want it and let it be known that that's exactly what you want and if a person is trying to trick you into believing because they have it all that they can make you happy you have to let them know happiness cannot be bought. DONT BELEIVE THE HYPE! These social sites will fool you. You would be suprise about how many people are not happy with their situations. Underneath the fasage is misery and sometimes you can tell because as humans we break down and slip up. We as humans are truly living in the GILDED AGES where everyone acts as thought they shit don't have a funky smell or everything that glitter is gold. When really we all want to be happy so bad that we'll fake it til we make it even if we know for surely it's not the real deal. IN ORDER TO BE HAPPY YOU HAVE TO HAVE SOMETHING TO LOVE, SOMETHING TO DO, AND SOMETHING TO LOOK FOWARD TO!

Trick or Treat?

 Now days every lady is looking for that guy who can  provide for them; Right? Someone who can spend some money on you, oh naw y'all don't want no broke n*gga! I honestly think you ladies get providing and supporting a bit mixed up Tricking and treating  all the way messed up.That's okay, because now I'm here to help you separate the two. Single Ladies go grab a notebook and pen!

 First off , I'm going need all you ladies to stop calling these men tricks... why? Because when a man tricks he's usually a pimp tricking on his hoes who's about to be working that track and having sex for money. So if he is tricking on you because your giving him sex in return who's the hoe? hmmmm I'll wait. If you only got your hand out for some money your not an helping hand you're no better than these hoes working that track. It's not a good look; no guy wants a lady who forever got her hand out.

 Now their are ladies out here guys who actually can have that helping hand out so she don't need no hand outs. She helping herself and if you need her to do something for you its no problem. This is a turn on ladies; a guy cant help you if you can't help yourself. You always want to be that girl who can stand on your own two feet. You really have to have something going for yourself if you want anybody to respect you; you cant just be sitting at home not going to school, not going to work, not doing nothing. It only leave you with nothing to offer but a orgasm for these guys.

 A guy be knowing from the first time y'all text, talk, or link up if you are going to be a girl who he's trying to f*ck or a girl he's actually trying to f*ck with. It's all about how you portray yourself. Don't say anything that will give him the impression you want it as bad as he do. Now that is unless you actually do but you have to understand that's just what its going be. You really have to let him know what you're looking for from the start, do not go beating around the bush because you guys may start kicking it and he may start buying you things and you may even start to developing feelings when really he's doing all this tricking to get the treat.

 At this point this can go either two ways. If you told him you were trying to built a relationship and you have more than just sex to offer he may rock with you and start treating. Its not considered tricking if he actually f*cks with you. Now if you only have sex to offer and he just spend all this money on you he's going feel like sex is what he got in return for all the tricking he did. And nine times out of ten he will be on to the next. Sorry girl it was fun while it lasted. So kill that tricking word ladies its just silly to say "oh but he's a trick" if your not just trying to get some money and get f*cked. Let's be realistic for a moment. No matter what the situation is every guy wants to have sex when they first meet a girl but you can honest change if he wants to treat you or trick you. Its all up to you ladies!

What You Really Want?

  As a child my parents always tried to explain to me what my wants and needs are. Trying to tell me that my needs are way more important than my wants even when my wants out weight my needs. Now people take this a bit far, making their wants their needs and vise versa. Or sometimes even forgetting about their wants thinking they're unimportant!

 Wanting to be happy is important; wanting to be married is important; wanting to be successful.. IS IMPORTANT! None of these are exactly needs what so ever but are important when you're trying to figure out what your future will contain. It really amazes me how many people don't know what to say when someone asks them "WHAT DO YOU WANT"? If you want it then say it.. It's really that simple because most people can careless about your needs and get confused about wants.

  I thought it was so funny how I just seen toshthugettes post about how guys don't never be up front about what they want.. That's only because we all know what they want at the end of the day which is fine but leading someone on is never the case. If you want to be just friends but want to do what people in relationships do, which can be difficult, but shit we can make it work. All you have to do is say that's what you want! If you just want sex you need to say that's what you want. How don't you know if I may want that too? Don't go forcing anything because you're not sure what you want! And don't go forgetting what just sex means! Don't go acting as if you want something more because things could get pretty messy. And don't get upset when you get what you want be clear not misleading.

 Guys and girls be so worried about what they think they need but never know exactly what they want.  I always feel like if you don't know what you want then you don't need to be trying to mess with me. Only because time is a precious thing we can not get back. Please don't go wasting anyone's time just because you don't know exactly what you want... And most of us don't but that's something we all NEED to work on!

Triangle Effect

 Through out life we all go through these crazy dilemmas. Not all of us have gone through a dilemma such as a love triangle but a good handful has. Now recently there have been a few people who came to me for advice on what they should do and I'm only going to say this once. I can not tell you what to do I can only help you through ;You are your own person. I can't make you do anything. Ok, Alright, Cool.
So normally in a love triangle there are two ladies and a guy(NORMALLY!). The guy usually has one lady whom he really likes. Then he has another lady who he likes a lot but not so sure about. These ladies are two totally different people. Now I'm not going to call neither one of these ladies the main chick or side chick because if anyone wants to get technical no one is number one at first lol. It's the ladies who make him make that decision.

 Now a single guy can do as he pleases. He's not committed to either of these ladies; but once they find out about each other the competition begins, and us ladies make up these rules in our little heads on what a man can and cannot do and you cannot do that especially when he's is not obligated to you. I can honestly admit and vouch for this being a fact because I and many others I know maybe even the ladies reading this is like "hell yeah hell yeah hell yeah". How you going have rules for a game you don't have no control over!?

 Listen... When this competition becomes noticeable to the guy and to the public, especially the public... Is when it gets real! These ladies go at each other's neck, and we will all be right on these social site all in it. And what we might not peep is that there's always that one lady who's on chill while the other feels as though she has so much to prove. Doing the most is all a threatened female knows. And that's a major turn off. The lady attacking is pushing the guy so far away she doesn't even notice because she so caught up trying to compete with the next we going call her the crazy one.

 But just because the guy falling back don't mean he still don't "fuck with" the crazy lady. The lady who was on chill NORMALLY becomes the girlfriend and feels like she won when really he  still talking to the crazy lady. This is when the main chick side BS take affect and it's still a lose lose situation and y'all both dummies. Now because the guy has two girls he's trying to please  so he start. lying instead of keeping it real with the two ladies.

 My advice to anyone in this situation is this; If a guy is going to make you compete for a spot next him & this goes for both ladies; Don't no body want to be that "But I fuck with you" ass bitch. Excuse my French but that's just what it is. If he came with drama tell him it's a rap take that shit to FTR because don't nobody got time for that... Ties right into my "Rule #1 Never Be #2" ladies again... KNOW YOUR WORTH!